I am seriously not sure where the time goes. It seemed just like yesterday that we were headed into summer now it is cooler in the mornings and warmer in the afternoons. Three weeks ago I was out on my porch and I actually felt the season change. It was pretty strange. I could feel the crisp fall smells coming and I have felt them getting stronger as each day has gone by.
The last nine months have been anything but normal. Trying to find my balance as I am certain I have said before. I tried my forever fail safe, in taking classes only to be disappointed in myself in not getting any of them done. I have however, have felt a shifting the last few weeks and that is the best feeling. It is like I have been birthing this new life, a life that I prayed for but didn't expect it to be like this. I have gone from having my own time, to full time care giver of my grandchildren. I wouldn't change anything but it is not what I thought it would be. I can dream everything about the day, what to do with my gbabies only to have life come in and take hold. They are here everyday, all day with very few breaks. This house has had to relearn to do loud well and that we do. For me it has been a challenge and I would be lying if I said I was okay with the loudness. I am relearning to get up early so I will have my quiet time. Tonight is the first time in weeks that I have been at peace with writing, it feels good.
So here is to fall, settling in for cuddles under warm blankets, cups of hot tea or cocoa and being done with putting off projects. Just getting things done so I can find my lost creative self. She has been resting for months and wants to be awake!