Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Life
Life just keeps going, each day passes brings new life. When I made the decision last fall to have my hernia surgery I gave myself permission to take care of me. I haven't always done the best job of that...self care. Deciding to take this year to take care of me in all things hasn't been easy. Sometimes I am scared of the words that come from my mind so much so that I can push them away telling myself that I don't have time to think about them. The reality is in doing that I have hurt part of myself. It took me saying yes to self care to understand that. I have not wanted to face the disappointment I have had with myself in so many areas. I have realized though that if it wasn't well with my soul that there was going to be no way I could be okay with anything else in my life. Now I know their is no going back to change things but I can change where I am now. That is the kind of change that I am learning to be okay with. Somewhere the last couple of years I stopped choosing to be happy. It was like I was slowly drowning and I couldn't get any air no matter how much I knew I shouldn't take on other peoples stuff. How could I be happy if others around me weren't? I let so much effect everything in my life. Since my last post I feel like I am coming out of a deep fog. I can see things a little bit clearer now and life is getting ready to change again for me. All is good and I am learning what over flowing joy is all about. I'm doing my best to embrace it! I hope you will come back to visit.
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