Things that encourage me right now in music.......Be blessed today
1. Kim Walker - 10,000 Reasons
2. Britt Nicole - Gold
3. Rascal Flatts - Changed
4. Hillsong - You Hold Me Now
5. Point Of Grace - How You Live
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Divine appointments
Do you believe in them? I sure do. I believe He is here, walks with us even when we can't see anything in front of us. I have had a few of them the last couple of weeks so I thought I would share them here. Maybe it might help you to walk with a little more purpose if you are scared.
I honestly haven't had the best few months. Adjusting to so much, feeling invisible to everything around me and having to shoulder so much on my own(or at least it has seemed like it). Good days have been few and far between. I finally pushed the fear away with the help of a wonderful hour long worship service I found on YouTube. It was a day that I just allowed myself to be quiet, no distractions so I could allow my focus to be on Him. Tears fell for me that day and it was so what I needed to feel close to God, to know He had my back always.
Since then I have gone into the doctor to just talk about a list of things that I was really afraid of. With a lot of encouragement from some very special ladies in my life I was able to walk with a confidence I haven't had in awhile. Today I am waiting for my blood work to come back to see where I am in this journey of peri menopause along with a few other things. It is amazing to me the people He brings into your life at just the right time. The people I didn't think I needed were the ones I have needed the most! Thank you ladies, you know who you are, my Brave lovelies!
Today was a day off for me, just with a few simple errands that needed to be done. One of those things I treated myself to a coffee and a double chocolate brownie, after all I had just fasted 12 hours so I could have my blood work done. I was just going to head home but I felt I needed to sit down in one of the comfy leather chairs. A nice lady came up and was sitting waiting for someone. We introduced ourselves and that is where the day and time became divine! I honestly don't remember everything we talked about but I just shared my heart. I do remember sharing about my trip to Nebraska over a year ago now, about the key things I have learned as being a part of Brave Girls. She then began to tell me how she just lost her Aunt Jewel a couple of weeks ago and she has been feeling led to call her Uncle who lives in Nebraska. She then blessed me by thanking me for talking to a complete stranger, blessing her life with my words and allowing her to bless me. That is exactly what she did today. Everything about what I am doing right now for my daughter, grand kids and the rest of my family is just plan hard most days. It is nice to know that God is right their, He has my back always! Thank you God for Marion, may you bless her in the journey she has before her!
I honestly haven't had the best few months. Adjusting to so much, feeling invisible to everything around me and having to shoulder so much on my own(or at least it has seemed like it). Good days have been few and far between. I finally pushed the fear away with the help of a wonderful hour long worship service I found on YouTube. It was a day that I just allowed myself to be quiet, no distractions so I could allow my focus to be on Him. Tears fell for me that day and it was so what I needed to feel close to God, to know He had my back always.
Since then I have gone into the doctor to just talk about a list of things that I was really afraid of. With a lot of encouragement from some very special ladies in my life I was able to walk with a confidence I haven't had in awhile. Today I am waiting for my blood work to come back to see where I am in this journey of peri menopause along with a few other things. It is amazing to me the people He brings into your life at just the right time. The people I didn't think I needed were the ones I have needed the most! Thank you ladies, you know who you are, my Brave lovelies!
Today was a day off for me, just with a few simple errands that needed to be done. One of those things I treated myself to a coffee and a double chocolate brownie, after all I had just fasted 12 hours so I could have my blood work done. I was just going to head home but I felt I needed to sit down in one of the comfy leather chairs. A nice lady came up and was sitting waiting for someone. We introduced ourselves and that is where the day and time became divine! I honestly don't remember everything we talked about but I just shared my heart. I do remember sharing about my trip to Nebraska over a year ago now, about the key things I have learned as being a part of Brave Girls. She then began to tell me how she just lost her Aunt Jewel a couple of weeks ago and she has been feeling led to call her Uncle who lives in Nebraska. She then blessed me by thanking me for talking to a complete stranger, blessing her life with my words and allowing her to bless me. That is exactly what she did today. Everything about what I am doing right now for my daughter, grand kids and the rest of my family is just plan hard most days. It is nice to know that God is right their, He has my back always! Thank you God for Marion, may you bless her in the journey she has before her!
Friday, March 22, 2013
Life seems to forever in a state of chaos BUT there is beauty and peace!
That is what has become my comfort, seeking peace. Remembering that being alone doesn't have to be a bad thing. So I am resting, trying to find my wings so I can soar.
Most days it is slow going and I find myself sometimes filled with anxiety. Always going back to finding things I can control that bring me peace. Soon Spring will be here, I am seeing signs in my yard. I am looking forward to getting out there but the weather needs to go up just a few more degrees before I won't freeze my hands off even with gloves on.
That is what has become my comfort, seeking peace. Remembering that being alone doesn't have to be a bad thing. So I am resting, trying to find my wings so I can soar.
Most days it is slow going and I find myself sometimes filled with anxiety. Always going back to finding things I can control that bring me peace. Soon Spring will be here, I am seeing signs in my yard. I am looking forward to getting out there but the weather needs to go up just a few more degrees before I won't freeze my hands off even with gloves on.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Hello.....
February.....the little old ground hog didn't see his shadow so this means an early spring. Oh how I hope so! I am ready for the smell of freshly turned dirt that comes with spring. You know the smell, it is when those flowers start pushing up their heads trying to find the sky and the warmth of the sun. That is where I kind of feel I am right now, trying to push my authentic self to the surface. I truly feel a heavy weight baring down on me and it has been making me angry. Angry because I just can't figure it out, if it is one thing or a combination of things. I want to get quiet so I can figure it all out but my house is anything but quiet.
The only thing that seems to help is making art but I've always known this. It is really hard to let myself go when I create strictly because I am a perfectionist. Yes, little ole me, liking things a certain way all the time. I am trying to remember that I don't need to be perfect but in my head right now I seem to not be doing much right these days. I know it is a perspective thing. Trust me I am trying to relax and just let things go. It just leaves me tired and then my outlook isn't very good. I am taking advantage of the days that my daughter doesn't work until later in the day and that is helping. Slowly I am figuring things out just sometimes I wish it could be faster. Then I have to remember if it was faster maybe it wouldn't stick with me.
Happy Valentine's Day and may you be blessed beyond measure!!
The only thing that seems to help is making art but I've always known this. It is really hard to let myself go when I create strictly because I am a perfectionist. Yes, little ole me, liking things a certain way all the time. I am trying to remember that I don't need to be perfect but in my head right now I seem to not be doing much right these days. I know it is a perspective thing. Trust me I am trying to relax and just let things go. It just leaves me tired and then my outlook isn't very good. I am taking advantage of the days that my daughter doesn't work until later in the day and that is helping. Slowly I am figuring things out just sometimes I wish it could be faster. Then I have to remember if it was faster maybe it wouldn't stick with me.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
It's cold outside!
We are hard and fast into winter right now. The weather is bitter cold, the hot chocolate kind of days that make you want to sit under the covers all day. Rarely though, do I get to do that because as a Mom and Granny, duty calls.
You can however even tell when winter hits inside the house because this is what my dishwasher looks like....more mugs!
For years I have had these little mugs just waiting for little grand kids in my life. I am happy to report that they are being used and it makes me so happy. Hot Chocolate complete with peppermint mini marshmallows! The little dipper mug I have had since Nicole was little and she used to use it when she had 'coffee' with Daddy.
You can however even tell when winter hits inside the house because this is what my dishwasher looks like....more mugs!
For years I have had these little mugs just waiting for little grand kids in my life. I am happy to report that they are being used and it makes me so happy. Hot Chocolate complete with peppermint mini marshmallows! The little dipper mug I have had since Nicole was little and she used to use it when she had 'coffee' with Daddy.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
10 Things
Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all receive blessings beyond measure this year and that you are met right where you are.
My 10 things this month are total random because well I have been all over the place in emotions.
1. One of my favorite artists is Kelly Rae Roberts and I have always wanted to own something of hers. Things come up though and it seems I just never get around to it. Yesterday apparently was my day! I was a local thrift store and there this beautiful lady was. Telling me exactly what I needed to hear.
2. A jar of beautiful beads that my daughter allowed me to put on display in my corner.
3. Jars of buttons, they make me so happy. I can spend hours looking at them.
4. Pretty fabric on the top of my list to do something with soon! Just not sure what.
5. Alphabet letters, from the thrift store to use in my art.
6. My new gardening boots that are sitting quietly in my corner waiting for Spring.
7. My new stove and the special teapot I bought my daughter for Christmas.
8. Cinnamon Rolls that look like a flower when you put them on a plate.
9. This little lady taking a picture of me.....I love her.
10. My Grandson celebrating his 5th birthday.
My 10 things this month are total random because well I have been all over the place in emotions.
1. One of my favorite artists is Kelly Rae Roberts and I have always wanted to own something of hers. Things come up though and it seems I just never get around to it. Yesterday apparently was my day! I was a local thrift store and there this beautiful lady was. Telling me exactly what I needed to hear.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Happy New Year's Eve
Whether you are home with family, sitting alone anywhere, curled up with a good book, or maybe just in a room with a lot of people.....I wish nothing but the best for you in this coming New Year. As 2012 is coming to an end on the West Coast, in just about an hour I
have chosen my word for 2013 or maybe it has chosen me.....this next
year I will seek JOY. I am sure it will meet me right where I am and
teach me a thing or two. Do you have a special word for the coming New
Year?
The last few weeks have been full of sewing, up until the last hours of Christmas Eve. I made 4 quilts, altered newborn baby clothes for my Granddaughter's dolls which totaled over 2000 yards of thread and so many hours of sitting at my faithful machine that I am still sore.
My partner in crime, my youngest daughter Michaela, that blessed me by helping every minute that she could, so I could sew. I think I will owe her coffee out for weeks.
These are the dolls that my Granddaughter's found under the tree after breakfast Christmas morning. Their faces were priceless! Each one came with their own diaper bag of clothes and I included a name tag with who they are. Painting the faces and stitching on the hair was relaxing and fun.
My heart was in a different place this Christmas and so much I can't still understand. I am taking it one day at a time and the best thing is, I know I am okay. It is a wonderful feeling to know that the not so great things that happen, don't take me to a horrible place anymore. They make step back and see how far I have come.
PS.......Tracey, you need to contact me so I can get your book out to you
The last few weeks have been full of sewing, up until the last hours of Christmas Eve. I made 4 quilts, altered newborn baby clothes for my Granddaughter's dolls which totaled over 2000 yards of thread and so many hours of sitting at my faithful machine that I am still sore.
My partner in crime, my youngest daughter Michaela, that blessed me by helping every minute that she could, so I could sew. I think I will owe her coffee out for weeks.
My heart was in a different place this Christmas and so much I can't still understand. I am taking it one day at a time and the best thing is, I know I am okay. It is a wonderful feeling to know that the not so great things that happen, don't take me to a horrible place anymore. They make step back and see how far I have come.
PS.......Tracey, you need to contact me so I can get your book out to you
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