Maybe this just looks like a big pile of papers to you. To me though it represents a life I am letting go of. A time when I cared more about the things I had then the life that was going on around me. A life that made me feel secure by what I had or created. Those feelings years ago caused me to get my family into over $10,000 worth of debt. This pile of papers had been sitting in a bag for months, waiting for me to find the time to shred it. Last week I finally just did it. The freedom came for me and I felt a release for creating that I haven't had in quite a few months.
My past doesn't define me but by holding onto all of this I was allowing it too. Each receipt would take me back to the days I hid what I was doing from the ones I loved. I have done a few home businesses over the years and I had to not look at the names on the receipts. I could remember most of my customers faces and what they purchased. The countless times I showed up to do a home show and people weren't home. The worst were the people who paid with a bounced check, only for me to have to cover what they ordered. I can't help but wonder what some of them are doing, while others I thought were my friends turned out to only like me for what I had. Interesting isn't it?
I see things so much differently as I have allowed myself to heal. To figure out the source of my spending habits was the biggest thing in my life. It is freeing and allows me to recognize when I might be falling into that place so that I can stop. It is awesome feeling. So hear is to letting go!!