Forgotten

When I went to Brave Girl Camp September 2014 I went with not knowing what to expect but receiving everything I needed.  As I walked around the beautiful property I was met with the messages that would touch my soul.  This one of the first ones.......

I realized then, that the time we had been helping our Daughter and Grands start a new life, that I had felt forgotten.  I hadn't really wanted to face the way I had been feeling because I was viewing it as being selfish.  I wasn't good at communicating what I needed in the beginning because I didn't want my daughter to be burdened with one more thing.  I was the Momma I should be able to take care of me in the midst of taking care of everyone else.  Why do we do this to ourselves?  We need others to take care of us too and not just when we are sick.

The thing is there is being taken care of and taking care of ourselves.  We have to love ourselves enough to do something for ourselves that refuel us when we are empty.  I spent a lot of the time when we were helping our Daughter empty.  I couldn't focus on much but trying to get through the day.  Oh how, I have family that loves me, even in my rotten days.  I know I didn't have all rotten days but I wish now I would have just stood up and said from the beginning....Please see me, show me that I am not forgotten.  Help me to take care of myself.  Push me out the door with a book or my sketch book, to go sit in a quiet place without guilt.  I just couldn't find the words anywhere in myself for a long time to give myself permission to not be okay.  I did want to be doing what I was because that is one of the things I do best.  I just forgot about me.

So my friends, whoever your are, Don't Forget About You.  Take care of you at all costs so you can be a better Momma, Wife, Daughter and Friend.  Trust me, when you take care of yourself I think you will be reminded why you are so Awesome.